We were all given our life on this planet for a reason: And the reason is simple. To be yourself for as long as youre alive cause when youre dead, you’ll surely become everything else. So why not take full advantage of the gift that is a body. Share it with others that understand the value of skin and blood and beware of those that only give value to sticks and mud. You may, at times, feel as if youre missing out, and unconsciously deviate into desires that are not your own, but when the your true self reveals itself, understand that you were never missing out on anything other than the opportunity to be you; When it becomes so that you feel you are no longer you, it is far from the truth because you are never more YOU than when you are certain that you are alone.
— kin (via overthink-king)
Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.
Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing.